perverts allowed here!!!

So now you think you are famous.

2012-01-26T04:37:00.000-08:00

5 years ago, I dreamed of entering reality tv show for litte bit of fame or wealth.

Well, at one time, reality show used to be a trend, for one to gain instant fame. AF, Malaysian Idol, One in A Million,blablaa.
Don't let me start about the show in USA, they target reality show for almost everybody: pretty bimbo, drunk bimbo, spoiled bimbo, freaks, psychopath, normal people, animals, etc.

attention! reality show is not the IN THANG anymore.

parody is the new medium for seeking cheap publicity. from got lembu nak jaga, saman like you, aku seksi aku tahu to panglima ludah.

thought human creativity is greater as time passed by, hurm.

S.O.L: BAIK FLASHMOB PLAK, MENJURUS KEPADA SEMANGAT MUHIBAH, BUKAN BASED ON POPULARITI INDIVIDUALISTIK.

enigma

2011-11-19T11:03:00.001-08:00

it is not like you try to tell all the people about your issue, it is because of if you don't share it you might burst.it is not like you try to hide everything from others,you just hate the sympathy look that they give.it is not like you hate the new circle, but you just miss the fact that how the old circle eager to care about you. it is not like you love being goofy or being laughed at, its the littlest thing that can make you forget about the bitter part.it is not like you don't appreciate the people around you, its because you are busy with about yourself and abandon them indirectly.

definisi manusia

2011-11-04T23:34:00.000-07:00

manusia ialah mahluk yang suka mengeluh tetapi tidak mahu mengeluarkan peluh, suka meminta bantuan segera tetapi mengira,suka melatah tetapi tidak boleh dimarah,suka meminta kasihan tatapi tidak mahu memberi ihsan.sempena Aidil-Adha, buang definisi manusia di atas, dan sila berkorban ke jalan yang Maha Esa. selamat hari raya dan selamat bercuti.

butabisutuli

2011-09-30T11:34:00.000-07:00

eh,kau tu ketam, nak mengajar yang lain jalan lurus.eh,kau tu kucing, nak mengajar yang lain menyalak.eh,kau tu kaki bangku, nak mengajar yang lain tendang bola. eh,kau tu penipu,nak mengajar orang bercakap jujur. eh,kau tu gila, nak mengajar orang jadi normal. hakikatnya,jika kau bukan orang yang terbaik untuk mengajar orang, jangan tunjuk pandai.

laybacksitdownandenjoytheshow.

2011-09-22T09:31:00.000-07:00

its funny how people that's close to you hurt you the most.

guys, it's over.

2011-09-10T12:07:00.000-07:00

4 months, initially it seems like years. at the end,you realize that it felt like minutes.

cuti kali ni panjang sangat,

dari penganggur tegar jadi pencari kerja berdedikasi,

dari penghabis duit jadi peserta event bermakna,

dari pemuja bantal busuk jadi abang fasi,

dari anak pemalas jadi maskot ben-10,

dari hamba makan jadi pengamal kesihatan yang hangat-hangat tahi ayam,

dari kaki lepak jadi pekerja komited,

dari seorang yang monyok ketika berpuasa jadi seorang yang tak ingat dunia ketika raya.

then, its over!! sekarang dah kena familiarkan balik dengan perkataan plaintiff, defendant,accused. yeah,its over,guys,pfffft.

cerita kaum.

2011-07-23T01:52:00.000-07:00

peniaga-peniaga restoran Melayu

Ali: kedai sebelah ramai orang datang, ni tak boleh jadi,kita kurang untung.

Abu: apa susah,kita jumpa bomoh,kasi santau.biar tutup lubuk duit diorang.

peniaga-peniaga vcd haram

Ah Chong: polis ada datang tempat gua,habis angkut semua barang,lu jaga2 bisnes lu,nanti diorang datang sana

Ah Keong: terima kasih kasi ingat sama gua.

bukan semua senario macam di atas,cuma kebanyakkannya memang macam tu kat Malaysia

Melayu,mereka sangat bagus, mereka tidak benarkan kaum lain merosakkan mereka, mereka terlampau sayangkan bangsa mereka, kalau nak dihancurkan pun, biarlah oleh bangsa sendiri.

tepuk dada tanya selera.

semester break - mukadimah

2011-07-15T13:54:00.000-07:00

seperti yang diketahui oleh rakyat jelata,cuti kali ni agak bittersweet,fasa 2 bulan pertama amat melegakan dan rasa bebas dari tekanan akademik, fasa 2 bulan terakhir terasa agony of waiting.

let me start with the first phase of my semester break. Terlampau banyak aktiviti yang dibuat, tetapi hanya beberapa sahaja yang bermaruah dan berfaedah untuk diceritakan.Oleh kerana 2 bulan adalah masa yang agak panjang,entry kali ini hanya berkisar tentang cari kerja.

1. Job hunting

selepas disindir oleh family dan rakan2 tauladan kerana selalu bekerja sebagai sales assistant di kedai game yang mana bak kata diorang nak letak dalam resume pun tak impressive, so aku pun merajinkan diri untuk membuka website bar council, cari dan email several law firms yang ada di kajang.

kerana amat jahil dengan bidang koporat,berlagak pandai dan malu bertanya,aku menghantar email yang macamni.

So bila dah hantar berkali dan ke banyak banyak firms, aku tunjuk la sent message aku ni dkat kawan aku yang lebih ariff,shahril, and he laughed,not LOL kind of laugh tapi Rolling On The Floor punya Laugh. He said: people never sent this kind of message to law firm, macam budak kecik yang mintak kerja,grammar kau entah2 salah, langsung xprofesional
okay,so i was thinking about my stupidity and rasanya dah boleh berenti belajar law terus.

lepas tu dapat respons cmni,

padahal lepas gelakkan email aku,baru reply mcm ni untuk reject aku dgn cara yang lebih bersantun.

next,

kena setempek lagi,terus berhenti berharap.

hati tawar nak check email dah. tetapi pepatah Melayu salah,bila jatuh tak semestinya ditimpa tangga,lepas tu terus dapat emel cmni
(click to enlarge)

positive feedbacks,tapi banyak pulak soalan diajukan rasa mcm disoal siasat. yang paling penting, tak tahu nak reply apa,what the hell is probate, terpaksa merujuk kepada dewa segala istilah iaitu google.

probate= Establish the validity of a will. (extra info)

lepas google, terus reply dgn ayat yang dipelajari dalam the Apprentice: I'm quite familiar with
certain terms that you have mentioned. However, i'm a fast learner and
i'm willingly to learn new things.

RESPON-RESPON SETERUSNYA

jackpot, dpt 2 lagi job interview.

2. RESUME

sebelum pergi interview, mestila kena prepare resume. seumur hidup aku tak pernah buat resume, so terpaksa meminta bantuan dan consult orang lain.

bila meminta contoh resume dengan Ama hanizam, kena kutuk poyo sebab nk kerja dunia koporat, lepas tu suruh mintak dgn org lain sebab kerje dia xpayah resume asalkn ada vibrant personality.

minta dengan Alan, mamat tu unemployed, lagi tak tahu pasal resume.

mintak dengan izdiyani musawir kena gelak, lpas tu dia bagi guidance yang general.

last2 google and copy and paste jugak penawar hati.

semua details main bubuh je, jadi pengerusi kelab agama islam kat sekolah cina pun letak jugak,masuk pertandingan badminton yg sah2 geng loser pun aku menangkan diri sendiri dalam resume tu.

3. SESI INTERVIEW

total interview yang dapat tiga tempat, tapi 2 tempat je aku pergi sebab satu lagi tempat tak tahu kat mana, lepas tanya adam yg budak jati kajang pon dia xtahu kat mana, maknaya itu bukan rezeki.

masa interview,semua ayat poyo keluar,
"I am a leader, and I can be lead, I'm flexible"
"I don't crack under pressure, I work with pressure, pressure is my best friend"

sekali bila one of the Chinese interviewer belek resume and said : owh, you got B for your Bahasa Malaysia, my son and my daughter both got A1 for their bahasa in SPM.
terus, rasa humble, muka mencecah tanah.

Interviewer tanya pasal conveyancing la, pasal current issues, semua pun dijawab dengan jawapan rekaan sendiri dengan muka yang paling yakin dan nada paling lantang.

padahal dorg semua,eksperesi muka mcm dah bosan teruk dah.

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selepas dua2 interview, satu firm offer jadi intern bagi elaun tak banyak mana pun, satu lagi firm offer jadi assistant kepada legal adviser kat situ,gaji cecah riban, tapi dengan syarat sanggup wat research and kerja sampai malam.

atas sebab ada event LEC and hal-hal lain yang tak dielak, komitmen memang tak dapat nak bagi sepenuhnya pada kerja so akhirnya terpaksa lah aku tebal muka call balik reject offer and gave them excuses yang terang terang tak masuk akal.

My lame experience of getting job at law firm is the first part of my semester break story, will update more soon.

death and god

2011-06-16T12:48:00.000-07:00

we had a bad dream about death and we woke up and start to think about god.

i once dreamt i had cancer, and woke up, thankful to god for not giving me that.

then, i start imagining if i know when death will greet me,maybe I will be more pious and pray every single hours.

but then, if I know it will be ten years from now,maybe I will abandon Him.

hari ni dia menangis padaku tentang keluarganya,
esok aku menangisi pemergiannya di kuburnya.

mereka tahu kematian datang bila-bila,
namun mereka takbur dan tidak gentar.

yang peliknya bila doktor memberitahu jangka masa hidupnya,
Al-Quran di tangannya,zikir di mulutnya, solat amalannya.

mengapa tidak ketika mereka jahil tentang kematian mereka.

facial expression

2011-06-05T11:20:00.000-07:00

totally learned something new today even by rolling up your eyes in front or behind others can cause aggression.

I do that all the time when i disagreed with or annoyed by someone which includes my family and friends.

today, my bad habit caused the peak of its plight, my own family member uttered some bad words and punched me in my face. well, if it wasn't bad enough, to be declared as the most hated member and his opinion was backed by other person that you loved is kinda hurtful.

moral: smile would be the noblest way to stop an argument. shall start smiling more often.

neither aloof nor disassociate

2011-05-18T10:19:00.000-07:00

officially not one of them anymore.

done trying, for some its till all my sweat dried. and others, tossing a coin in the well is rather enough.

the option of choosing A than B is all one to me :)

Missing them.

2011-03-23T07:12:00.000-07:00

I miss the old us,
Dear A, I miss the time when we being silly and take a ride to the town, and we eat and eat like devil.

Dear B, I miss the time before we went to bed, we shared our experience and thoughts and dirty jokes.

Dear C, I miss the time when we fought over who should take the aerosol spray and kill the mosquitoes which won’t stop bugging us.

Dear D, I miss the time when we were on the way to school, we sing, laugh and sleep till the driver had to wake us up.

Dear E, I miss the time when u brought the comics while I had to be quarantined in my room.

Dear F, I miss the time when we ate cendol after our practice and whine about how we feel like a labor.

Dear G, I miss the time when you persuaded me to ride the skateboard and I end-up twisted my ankle.

Dear H, I miss the time when we wrestled and you lose every single time.

Dear I, I miss the time when we went to the gig thinking of wooing some girl but end up most of them are dude.

Dear J, I miss the time when you and I tried to fool the lecturer and we got caught and nagged.

Dear K, I miss the time when you not judging me every time I told you my predicaments.

Dear L, I miss the time when we have our own anthem, and we were proud bout it thou it is silly.

The feeling of being apart now when we used to be close so sucks, maybe it does come from your part too but most of all, it is from me.

Sorry for neglecting you, for being a bad friend, for not being by your side, for disassociating from you, for making comment about you, for being such an ego loser.

the past is past, the rest is still unwritten, so let’s take a move :). kan?

dear beloved blog,

2011-03-13T04:36:00.000-07:00

sorry for abandoning you, time is never on myside, rsa macam setiap hari ada 12 jam je, begerak dgn laju tapi produktiviti lembab.

where should i start?

yeah, im in my third semester, really trying hard to cope with all in my vicinity. pressure exerted on me like tsunami hit Japan.

thanks to Allah for people surrounding me, someone who cares about me, friends that being sensible towards me and family that never leave me behind. I love them,please don't take them from my life in the nearest time.

this semester really sweet but at the same time hard on me, i can't cope with my studies, and worst , feeling of being useless and relying on others make me feel obnoxious.

avoidance and disassociating from someone that give me a hard time, these still exist, and i'm so angry with myself for being selfish.

every night before i go to bed, i pray for Him for a better tomorrow. for me to feel less awful and less negative thoughts.

ok,stop blabbering. tons of assignment to do.

thank you,blog for listening to me.
ezwar rusydan

100th and on vacation

2010-11-23T23:07:00.001-08:00

tema cuti semester kali ini 3K.(KERJA,KURUS,DAN KESERONOKAN)

KERJA- mmg memerlukan kerja,sebab kalau ada di rumah setiap masa,konphemkn akan memutuskn hubungan dgn adik beradik dan ibu bapa, sbb mmg dont see eye to eye antara 1 sama lain,org tua ckp,mmg cannot go la. kadar tolenrasi amatla rendah dlm diri ni. jadi kerja adlah the best option, plus dpt gaji yg mana akn menampung elaun yg tdak diberi @ dikurangkan ketika cuti.

KURUS- berat terkini 75.5 kg, teramatlah penat membawa bdn sebesar gajah ni. study week adalh minggu yg pling membebankn bile terpaksa mengheret diri ini ke library. jadi mesti berikhtiar untuk kurus, sbb trase hina bila pakai bju t persak dgn badan sebegini. so hari ini adalah my 2nd day dlm proses ini so wish me luck yaw! dan saya telah berjanji pada diri saya kali ini, jika saya sudah kurus,saya akan sedar diri ktika mecekik dan melantak di kemudian hari.

KESERONOKAN - lebihkan masa untuk bertemu sahabat lama yg mana mungkin seronok. kerana untuk balik ke uitm dlm masa 5 minggu lg, itu tidak seronok. untuk tidak memikirkan apa2 ketika ini, seronok gila!

ok, kalau xcukup masa untuk laksanakn 3K ni, pergabungan sebegini akn dilakukan.

kerja untuk kurus = keseronokan (xrelevan, just bear with me)

PS: this is my 100th post, what i have shared and wrote about, that is part of me. so for those who reading it and comment, tq!

birthday present

2010-11-04T09:04:00.000-07:00

dear beloved mama and abah,

im legally 20. since i havent got anything for my birthday, can i ask for one? all i want from both of you is less expectation.

really tired, so maybe for this year, please bear with me. let me enjoy my 20th year in this world without any onus.

thank you.

ps: maybe more allowance?

your son,
ezwar rusydan

impliedly confined under the name of independence

2010-08-31T12:39:00.000-07:00

the time has come for one to learn how to prioritize himself instead of others, do care bout others but dont committed to them more than to yourself.

sometime, they dont appreciate the things you have done because they dont actually care much about you. the best way is move on.

at least,thats what i learn in this 2 years.

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY MALAYSIA!

for those Malays who are so devoted to their race and insecure about themselves, other races are not trying to tramp you over. they dont even feel like it worth it. yes, they do come and originate from mainland and India, still,please remember, they are contributing to our nation success.

dont blame Nawawee for what he thinks is right. maybe he is right, maybe he's not. its up for individual to judge.

shove it.

datang bulan datang bulan

2010-08-10T03:05:00.000-07:00

ramadhan datang lagi,selamat tinggal kegelojohan,selamat tinggal nafsu.
semoga kita jumpa lagi bulan depan.

selamat menjalani ibadah di bulan Ramadhan al-Mubarak.

au revoir.

2010-08-06T22:32:00.000-07:00

Benarkah salahku, lepaskan kamu
Kau duga egoku, fahami diriku begini
Tiada yang sama
Yang pasti kita semua bebeza
Kau fikirlah

Tiada guna cipta sebuah cerita
Kalau kisah kita sementara
Rasa hati dan langkahmu
Membuat aku keliru

Tiada guna kita menderita
Sungguh semua tidur pun tak lena
Rasa hati dan katamu
Tak lagi seperti dulu

Kita pernah satu, aku dan kamu
Dulu itu dulu, masih di dalam ingatanku
Kini berbeza
Namun masih ku harap kau bersedia
Oo mungkinkah, kau temu bahagia

Lepaskan semua mimpimu
Tangis dan juga sayumu
Kau fikirlah

Tiada guna cipta sebuah cerita
Kalau kisah kita sementara
Rasa hati dan langkahmu
Membuat ku keliru

Tiada guna kita menderita,
Sungguh semua tidur pun tak lena,
Rasa hati dan katamu
Tak lagi seperti dulu

Sungguh semua tidur pun tak lena
Rasa hati dan katamu
Tak lagi seperti dulu

Aku keliru
Aku keliru

crack on the mirror

2010-08-01T00:55:00.000-07:00

Let just say it is a truth not an attempt of desperate way to get public attention.
Let just say it was a crime of mine not her

It was hard for us so please just keep your comment to yourself.
Like I said before, do appreciate your support not your sarcasm

Ps: friend, they don’t steal the spotlight from another friend. They share the light.

paul on my right shoulder

2010-07-10T12:37:00.000-07:00

life is leading on the right path. couldn't ask for more now.

be with right guy, avoid the wrong one.

trying the best to walk the talk.

ps: monday morning and madam angeline, we will having rough time again.be prepared:)

price tag

2010-07-01T12:02:00.000-07:00

1999
Mak: nah seringgit upah.
Anak: yes,boleh beli 5 sticker Pokemon

2010
Mak: nah serringit upah.
Anak: Haaaaa, duit tol pon xlepas.

Cara kita menghargai sesuatu berbeza hari demi hari.

#$%: dlm Char kuey tiaw pon ade kaca,nk makan pon kene berjaga2 dah.

1st season BLS review.

2010-06-24T01:21:00.000-07:00

1st semester (macam dah terlambat nak review,tapi perlu untuk muhasabah diri)

issues:

1. Kedekut markah
Subjek2 law semua macam nak pecah kepala, kalu dulu pling minat article2 dlm fed con sbb rse pandai bile belaja, owh selepas diz hectic sem dgn madam, im pretty sure
constitutional law is bottom of my favourite list. Semua lecturer pon dh nk mkin
kedekut nk bgi markah,bukan mcm kat asasi dulu lecturer cm boleh disogok dengan chocolate dri langkawi or senyuman xlekang dek panas n hujan.

2. Datang lewat
Bila kelas Subjek2 lain mcm dibenci lecturer je ,sbb perangai sendiri yg terlalu byk onar smpai lecturer pon xtahan.
Bila kat skolah or asasi,dtg lmbt,cikgu or lecturer wat muke je.tapi bile kelas Bel mdm Angeline, lmbt 5 minit pon die dh wat speech untuk menginsafkn student which mmg berjaya wat student dtg awal untuk minggu seterusnya sahaja.
Kalu kelas ustaz zaki, muhasabah diri la jawapannya kalau dating lambat.aku dh penah kena tiga kali,tapi still xberapa reti nk mendalami kesilapn diri,n btw sorry ustaz sbb byk besinetron dgn ustaz.

3. Kesatria yang kesat
Dulu masa budak2 diploma kena kesatria,kitorg tumpang gelak mase otw nk g outing.
Sekarang,semua dh berubah, kitorg pulak malu dan cuba tutup muke sbb xnk air liur komander terkena muka bila dimaki hamun.
Budi bahasa budaya kita,cikgu kestaria berbudi je ,komander je yg lebih nk tunjuk taring,perluke bahasa kasar ni,nk ajar kitorg boost self confidence dgn mencarut ke?
Tapi encik tunerman mmg sempoi.thumbs up

4. Kawan-kawan
Semua masih sama, masih gembira,masih ceria,bertepuk bertampar biasa la tu.

5. Classmate
Fun,tenang.secretly wish stay smpai abis,apekan daya sume pon kene ikot member sebab rumah sewa

That’s all for 1st semester review.hopefully next semester getting better,thanks classmate,coursemate and lecturers for making this semester quite awesome.

how i met ezwar?

2010-06-11T12:51:00.000-07:00

masa baru lahir,orang xsuka aku,dorg ckp: baby ni xkiut.

masa umor 3 tahun,sanak pinak xsuka aku,dorg ckp: bengap punye budak,xreti bercakap lagi ke?

masa umor 7 tahun,ustazah xsuka aku,dorg ckp: tow yi er san si je, alif ba ta xtow2 ke?

masa umor 12 tahun,kwan tuisyen xsuka aku,dorg ckp: gi main jauh2.ko mcm fei mao..

masa umor 16 tahun, team8 xsuka aku,dorg ckp: ko r ne xberbakat,kn kita dh kalah.

masa umor 20 tahun,kawan xsuka aku,dorg ckp(x,dorg xmain ckp,dorg urban, main fb n blog): ko ni belagak,hipokrit,penipu.

bila tengok dalam cermin,aku ni xdela muka yang annoying sgt. memang perangai dan nature aku kot.

bila aku wat list a-z, rsenya xsmpai 10 org pon suke aku ada kot.

tapi benci2 la,xde plak aku nak bunuh diri sebab korg. jadi hindarila aku.

ps: dh 3 hari kot.

the game is so last season.

2010-06-04T09:11:00.000-07:00

I know how the game being played before. So, it doesn’t surprise me a bit when they played it too.

I’m tired of the game and I couldn’t careless anymore. Explaining, questioning and finding reasons or excuses are certainly not me anymore.

Just cut it short, stop wondering. Let’s say I played the game too. Move on and stop looking for reasons are the best option.

Ps: some people they just don’t preach.

cool habis la.

2010-05-29T00:31:00.000-07:00

orang kelantan n terengganu x cool, orang key-el,subang,damansara cool.

malu kawan dgn mat rempit,diorg pergi orange ,xcool.

kalu pergi zouk,bru cool.kwan ngn sume org loaded.

mak saye pakai perodua, xpakai jenama import,oh mak saye x cool.
mak awak pakai bmw,cool giler,nk jdi anak angkat boleh?

pakai friendster ketinggalan,x cool; pakai fb common sgt,pkai la twitter,urban sikit.

pakai baju uptown lame la,pakai la designer cloths,bru la coool.

pakai henfon xleh touch screen xcool, kene pkai yg boleh gune suara bagi direction,bru classy.

LAGI RAMAI MANUSIA BEFIKIRAN MACAM KAT ATAS NI,DAH LAMA SEMUA ORANG MATI KESEORANGAN.

BYE,URBAN X GUA TAIP MCM NI?

biggest sin that a human can do

2010-05-25T23:59:00.000-07:00

denying denials.

free pass to world's hell.

7

2010-05-09T09:37:00.000-07:00

monday
i wake up form bed and thinking about my exam later that day,that is the day i dedicated my life to education.

tuesday
i wake up from bed and excited about my date with my love at night,that is the day I dedicated my life to love.

wednesday
I wake up from bed and thinking about our family feast,that is the day I dedicated my life to my family.

Thursday
i wake up from bed and dont want to do anything for the rest of the day,that is the day I dedicated my life to myself

Friday
I wake up from bed and replied my friend's sms to join him that evening,that is the day I dedicated my life to my friends.

Saturday
I wake up from bed and check my facebook,that is the day I dedicated my life to social networking.

Sunday
I wake up form bed and realized that I missed my Subuh prayer, thats the day i realized I never dedicate my life to GOD.

what about u guys?
lets meditate.bye.

a moron who is wrapped by his stupidity

2010-05-09T05:59:00.000-07:00

its not what people do to u or what people say to u. It is just the nature of you which incites such behavior from others.

so stop acting like everybody against u..

and you look like pathetic,stop accusing others did bad things to you, its your nature to look at others fault but not yours..and then you act like a bimbo,naively like u never did anything wrong..

ps: This few months,we are having a blast without your capricious emotions.hopefully we wont meet again for another 7 years..peace!

ilusi & jahil

2010-05-07T13:20:00.000-07:00

sesetengah pandangan,kritikan atau soalan tidak perlu diutarakan. senyap menunjukkan kepandaian. senyap menunjukkan kematangan. senyap menunjukkan kepercayaan.

sepatutnya kau lebih kenal aku siapa.tapi dunia lebih pandai.aku juga selalu terpedaya,bukan kerana nafsu tapi kerana jahilnya akal.

persetankan semua, hidup bukannya tertumpu pada satu titik perspektif.

bukannya bila dipandang serong,kau terus berkabung.

semua hanya ilusi. ya aku memang kaca,bukannya permata.

i guess my mom love me the most.

2010-05-05T20:59:00.000-07:00

Thick and thin, tall and small, fast and slow. Tell me who is always there for you. I am sure you know. Your best friend, of course, don’t let him or her go

pals, is it necessary for u guys to tell me now? hopefully its not to late for me to realize and clarify.

1. opportunist. yes,i am one of them, who lives and creeps just to fill the gap but i wont suck blood from my friend. so, i don't care if u are from royals or you have cool rides, its the nature in you which basically makes the bond.

2. ditch friend. i don't ditch my friends, u called it ditching but i said its an adapting process to new environment. its not because i met somebody else and suddenly you are unnoticeable, clingy, burden, or meaningless. If u feel that way then i'm sorry.

so,pals, thanks for another life experience.

ps: holiday mode,gonna miss u syg.

i want a divorce but there is a permanent contract between us

2010-04-29T02:50:00.000-07:00

aristotle : the law is the reason free from passion.

i guess aristotle is not that wise. For one to devote his life to law, he needs a lot and alot and alot of passions.

sadly i dont have the enthusiasm anymore, screw tort,hell with contract,burn the legal sytem book.

all i wanna do is learn anything other than law. it used to be joke how much i hate law course but it is a reality now,law and myself is from completely different world.

law & lame.

2010-04-06T03:17:00.000-07:00

a: semalam kitorg de masquerade party for masscom, n we have to interview famous people for our assignment

b: kitorg pulak semalam tengok org kene bedah.he has tumor,the tumor is damn huge..

me:owh,semalam aku bace cases for tort and contract,kelakar..hehe

a&b: haaa????

mingling with friends from other courses make me realize how boring law can be..

if i were Tan Sri Robert Kuok's son, let just say that i will change my course asap like i change my undies.

if its my turn, just vote me out..

2010-04-03T06:38:00.000-07:00

patukkan ular pun tak sebisa ni.

pemberita cakap aku yang tikam mangsa tetapi rasa macam mangsa yang tikam aku.clueless!

When one bases his life on principle, 99 percent of his decisions are already made. how about i let u make the decision?

let me stay or vote me out..

ps: soory for EVERYTHING- for not be in a team and follow the game plan.

do the maths

2010-03-31T09:14:00.000-07:00

daripada 8 menjadi 6, 2 disingkirkan
dari 6 menjadi 5,tapi xmengapa,ada penganti yang baru.
dari 6,singkir lagi sorg,tapi xpe masuk lagi sorg
dari 6 ne balik,semua dh jauh,dh makin kurg bermakna
apabila 6 menjadi 1,janganla masa tu baru nk menyesal

bukan salah seorang manusia yang memainkan peranan seperti tuhan menentukan siapa datang dan pergi tapi salah kita yang lain juga duduk di tepi tidak mengiyakan mahupun menidakkan.

a person told me that if u trying too hard to be neutral, you re actually LALANG..
owh,tersentap seketika..

friend and fat

2010-03-26T11:33:00.000-07:00

how i manage my body fat and how i manage my friendship is correlated.

in my own term,i define fat as:

fat can be your best friend that u dont want get rid of,eg: your fat at the ass,cant get rid of it(it will be hideous)

fat can be someone that you know who is annoying and a burden which suffocates you,eg: fat at the stomach,it annoyed u in the way that u always feel tired

fat can be like ur girlfriend who always make u smile when you are alone just like when u look at the mirror and notice that u almost male boobs,it do make u smile.

@#$%%^^

when u hate the fat and cant take it anymore,u worked as hard as u can to get rid of it..but still there is cellulite,it still haunted you..

then u added a new one by eating more telur bungkus in my term its like adding new friends just like what i did for this semester..

now im happy with my body,already cut the unnecessary fat and added with new fat(although its not 18kg,but it do make me happier)

it is clear for me that the girlfriend and bff fat,i do REALLY REALLY REALLY want to keep it forever..

for the rest, i may burn it with tons of exercise..

ps:happy birthday abdul hadi abdul MUTI,ko pon lemak yg aku nk simpan lama2..

of becoming a noble arwah..

2010-03-21T00:32:00.000-07:00

eulogies

MR. A(situasi 1)
ketika hidup arwah baik orgnya,pemurah,baik hati.bapa yg bertanggung jawab,suami yg peyayang,anak yang soleh,kawan yg baik..smoga dirahmati pemergiannya..

Mrs.B(situasi 2)
sobsk3...sedih sgt,sebak xboleh nk cakap ape2..die dulu mse idup baik sgt,tiada pengganti...

ezwarrusydan(situasi 3)
laaaa,dh mati ke?bila mati?hahahaha,pdan muka,akhirnya mati jugak...

sebab xnk situasi 3 berlaku,kena tebalkn muka berbaik2 dgn semua org...

diamonds in the mud..

2010-03-16T10:02:00.000-07:00

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

honeybee buzzing...

same drama,same people,different plotting..

2010-03-10T07:34:00.000-08:00

have u ever met a person who feels so insecure that it is a must for him to degrade people to show how good he is?but he doesnt brag about himself all the time,coz come on its damn obvious that he want the compliments from people not from himself.and plus this kind of person,he doesnt want people to involve in the group works although he insisted so..so that at the end, he can say"I DID EVERYTHING ALL BY MYSELF"

have u ever met a bunch of guys which at a time bitching around bout their friend who is aloof by himself but suddenly its a miracle they are close friends,they even kiss each other butts and eat each other shit..and its obvious that everybody know that they are a bunch of opportunists.btw,trust me,they got lot of freebies by kissing that pathetic person ass.

this is the few people who are in the cast of typical university life. if they are the standard reasonable man in this world, i rather meditate in the gloomy cave than living as mortal in this shameful world.

kami tak derhaka!!

2010-03-05T01:27:00.000-08:00

siapa kata anak xberkorban n berbudi?

ketika parents menjamu sarapan yang bombastic sebelum ke kerja,anak hanya menghirup milo 3 in 1 buatan sendiri sebagai alas perut sebelum tengahari..

ketika parents duduk di kerusi empuk kereta sambil mendengar lagu2 dari radio yg megah menyusur jalan raya,anak pula membeli rapid pass yg mana perlu berhimpit2 seperti sardin di atas bas dan inhale udara2 SEGAR..

ketika parents sampai awal di tempat kerja,anak pula dimaki herdik oleh lecturer bel nya sebab lmbt 5 minit ke kelas..

ketika parents memakai pakaian yg selekeh tapi selesa dan duduk di sofa smbil bergelak ketawa menonton tv,anak pula memakai sut,tali leher dan gamatnya membuat presentation di hadapan lecturer ctu nya yang xabis2 merapu...

ketika parents sedang lena dibuai tidur,anak sedang bersekam mata menghafal elemen2 yg smpai mati pon xabis dihafal untuk test keesokan hari..

ketika parents besuka ria di hujung minggu,anak pula terpaksa tinggal di hostel untuk menyiapkan assignmentnya...

siapa berani cakap pengorbanan anak x bermakna?

build the shield,mf..

2010-02-27T13:11:00.000-08:00

one of my friend make me to swear to not divulge this story to others but the story is about the ugly side of another friend of mine..

obligated,so i just cant do anything, dont wanna be called as a liar or faker..

so,friend the next time you do anything,just beware..

trust issue is a must so we dont get hurt..

digesting the frog juice

2010-02-24T06:33:00.000-08:00

suffocated

disgusted

exhausted

speechless

and it remains the same..

bite our lips and smile

2010-02-20T02:28:00.000-08:00

i am not making my own judgment,its by your & others words, you are in a wonderland and im doing fine then it means we are in a comfortable situation.

sometimes you do make me feel guilty for my honest feeling but u feel no guilt bout urs..
im hoping for things getting better between us but its just that there is no way out for us anymore..

im not running away or try to ditch you like i used to but the reality is a pain that we dont even know how to divulge it..

its hard to deprive myself from u since we have walked through the diverged muddy path for a long time together..

we dont need any clarification because after all it just a pain in the ass.

me and my heart,we have issues..so do u..

maybe it appeared to others that we are strangers now but the fact is we wont say goodbye to each others and we are obligated to it.

the shop will always open, the machine will making beverages like usual,as we said b4,let things go with the flow...

another dead scar

2010-02-18T06:10:00.000-08:00

every family have a ghost story..whether it come and go or it stay with u till u join him...

in my case,the ghost is both of it..

we may forgive but hell no we dont forget...

Post traumatic Holiday stress

2010-02-14T10:49:00.000-08:00

Well, happy Chinese year,guys..wang shi lu yi..

All my besties are not around for this holiday, sucks!!

Assignments and tests, sucks sucks!!

Found out about the cut off finger statement, sucks sucks sucks!!!

Have to postpone the reunion again,sorry!!!,and sucksx4

Will have pretty long date with khai, the word sucks do apply literally, slurp3 :D

Ps: mata air ckp jgn nak kapiaq sgt la,smbut valentine..lol

there's always a fine line

2010-02-09T02:48:00.000-08:00

there's always a fine line
between criticizing and degrading people

there's always a fine line
between asking for help and using people

there's always a fine line
between dislike and hate

there's always a fine line
between don't tell and lying

there's always a fine line
between telling the truth and backstabbing people

good luck in discovering the capricious line

SATRIA KESAT

2010-02-05T03:12:00.000-08:00

i used to be your tissue,
to wipe off ur damn green mucus,
when u r depressed and emotional,
u make a scene with us,
and u rarely say sorry..

but its history

the gap that i have created,
not because im avoiding u,
just that i feel u never act like an arse when u with others,
especially when u have tremendous mood swing..
so its a win-win situation i guess...

sampah: the last time i dont have any mood for anyting was after last raya puasa, so god please heal the ugly pain at my eye so i wont feel that again..

lead actors!!!

2010-01-29T15:51:00.000-08:00

sebulan diberi tempoh untuk mengasah,
sekarang taring dh mula tajam,
belang dh mula tunjuk,
ingatkan yang dulu2 dah abis,
abis idup 3 sem disana,
dh xkan ada org dan perangai mcm ni disini,
rupanya memang silap,
betul kata jason,sistem xpenah berubah...

------------------------

having a blast with my ex-pl3b..

ps:lokar jahanam,bulls@#$

Truth or Dare?

2010-01-24T13:09:00.000-08:00

-always choose dare since truth will reveal your dark secrets,
-you ought to think it just a stupid game but it can be a suicide game
-challenge yourself and be fun but know your limits because fun can be idiotic
-the truth that u told to others,they are not obligated to keep it,one day you r best friend,tomorrow you r mortal enemy to those person..even your best friend can slipped out things which can messed up ur life..

guys,the next time when u r playing the game,think wisely..dare to dare but deprived urself from divulging the truth then the seat belt is sealed,u r safe...

ps:perfect day!tq.

happy birthday!!!

2010-01-21T02:53:00.000-08:00

HANI AFIQAH,

You´re better then the best
I´m lucky just to linger in your life
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow that´s right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me
Lets me know that it´s ok yeah it´s ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh you make me smile

Even when you´re gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

Don´t know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes

oh you make smile!!!
happy 20th,syg!!

PS:happy birthday to farid zuhri too,ma beloved housemate..amin..

peek to my closet..

2010-01-15T09:16:00.000-08:00

1. I used to do drugs
2. I drank alcohol
3. I had a mistress
4. I reached the 4th base with a girl
5. I cursed my own family
6. i used my friend for my benefit

when it have crossed PRESENT time line,just let it go,stop judging what people did..

ps: When u feel the barrier that i made toward you,u know it ain't over,and i totally lied when i claim it was nothing...

EULOGY NO 2

2010-01-09T03:37:00.000-08:00

1. 2008246582-easier to memorize,damn this new STUD NUMBER got 9,3,4,1...swey3..

2. cempedak goreng dpan semarak,rm2 for 20,here its 6 for rm2,wtf?

3. fresh air with some pungent smell,rather than suck all the haze and rapidkl's gasses to your lungs..

4. distance to class,please be grateful,merbokian!!

thats all,yg lain xrindu sgt...

ps:goodbye,CHARLIE,YUCK FOU!!

tongue tied!!

2010-01-02T00:23:00.000-08:00

don't know how to say no kills you..

the director already gave the cue, so why don't us just follow the script like we used to.

call me handsome..

2009-12-30T16:22:00.000-08:00

1).hitchhiking
.waking up an hour before class
.butt cramp

have to adapt with these things. kiss goodbye to comfort,say bye2 to comfort(sigh)

2) the stranger & we don't know each other thing, it should stop...(sigh)

3) new year,new age,old resolutions(at least i have one),getting old and cranky and still no full driving license ...(sigh)

4)being in the same dorm with farid,hope it turns me to a pious person..(hehe)

5)timok,tengs for your support,remember our bus script:p

ps: there's a huge empty space...sigh

your coolness melt under our hotness..

2009-12-26T12:01:00.004-08:00

freedom of speech annoyed the hell of me...

yes, you have everything, cool family, lots of cool friend, everything just come and go the way you want...

sometime people just know it, so stop bragging...

a#@$%%:its a reminder for everybody even for me...hey,sorry, if u guys felt the same way toward me...

audition for new film!!!

2009-12-24T00:37:00.000-08:00

DISEMBER 2009

Along: Kau masuk degree bila ne?asyik xtow je..org len dh nk masuk dh.

aku:manalah aku tow..dia ckp boleh check time 17 aribulan.skrg dh 22 haribulan.

Along:habis tu nk antar ko bila ne?

Aku:ntahla..budak2 ne ckp masuk awal jan..

Along:ko dri dulu BUDAK2 NE CKP...mase result dlu pon mcm ne

JUN 2050

CUCU:grandpa, result saya xkuar2 agi..ckp kuar 15 aribulan..arini dh 30 aribulan..

aku:jap,ko blaja kat universiti mane?
CUCU: UITM la..

Aku:hurm,granpa dh agak dah..

________________________________________

semester baru.drama baru.plot baru. pelakon baru. penulis skrip baru. pengarah baru.

ps: harap2 jadi plakon tambahan yg duk lalu kat blakang je, plakon versatile dh terlampau banyak..

public entertainment

2009-12-19T00:41:00.000-08:00

avarice, sloth, envy, lust, gluttony, pride, and wrath..

i had committed all the seven sins...

lets talk bout that...

display photos n videos for drama and attention..its not me...

issues: sorry about yesterday...

you are history, not them!!!

2009-12-16T11:26:00.000-08:00

There are 20 people claimed to be your pal.

1)One of them made you sing and hum love song every day
-that person is your ayang ucuk

2)One of them will kill you just to end your misery.
-that person is your best friend.

3)One of them told you one secret and it changed your life tremendously.
-that person is part of your family member.

4)One of them inspired you in any perspective that he/she could
- that person is your idol.

5)One of them made a lifelong vow to you but somehow both of you broke it
-that person is your bittersweet memory

6)One of them enjoyed the same food, movies, and other interests with you, both of you even agreed to take car license together.
-that person is your soul mate

7)One of them talked to you for the whole night when you have insomnia
-that person is your companion.

8)One of them make you laugh till you wet pants
-That person is your clown buddy.

9)One of them put you at the 1st on list when he/she has problem but not when u need them.
That person is friend with benefits.

10)one of them shared your secrets and flaws to others.
That person is backstabber.

11)One of them don’t make any impact on your life,he/she comes and goes.
That person is acquaintance.

12)One of them talk bad about you but u never careless because you did the same thing to that person and it was joke to both of you
That person is the friend that you wish to deliver the bad news to you if there is one.
13) One of them laughed at you instead of your silly jokes
That person is your hypocrite friend.

14) one of them taught you how to use drugs and get wild
That person is a distraction

15) one of them brought you delicious food and stupid comic when you were sick just to entertain you
That person is your medicine.

16) one of them bought you a pair of size s t-shirt to motivate you
That person is the one that u feel like want to shoot him/her till death but u wont coz u love that person.

17) One of them used to be so close to you, so close till you think u shared the same umbilical cord with that person but something happen.
That person is your missing memory.

18)One of them and you owns a special song.
That person is your close friend.

19) One of them have secret recipe of success but he/she decided to not share with you.
That person is selfish.

20) one of them lied to you on how smart or handsome do you looked.
That person is your enemy.

Which one are you?

mirror mirror on the wall!

2009-12-11T00:41:00.000-08:00

Tell me your friends, and I'll tell you who you are.

we all liars...

2009-12-08T01:22:00.000-08:00

-Great talker, great liar.

-A liar will not be believed, even when he speaks the truth.

-Let God be true but every man a liar" is the language of true faith.

-excuses to another excuses

ladies:Men are liars. We'll lie about lying if we have to. we are algebra liar. well, two good lies make a positive.

I am Sesquipedalian!!

2009-12-06T01:44:00.000-08:00

ADA TIGA CARA MENCEGAH KEMUNGKARAN:
1. DGN BADAN
2. DGN LIDAH
3. DGN HATI (SELEMAH-LEMAH IMAN)

APPARENTLY, THE THIRD ONE SEEMS TO BE MY COMMON CHOICE. WORSE, I DONT EVEN BOTHER. YEAH, IT’S BAD..AND NOT PROUD OF IT..

Shittonyou: Finally realize how I spend my 6 months in denials and thank god it’s finally over:1

drinks?

2009-12-04T21:42:00.000-08:00

q: how do you want your coffee?
a: in a cup.

mmmm, people..lets not be that naive yah...

eulogy...

2009-12-04T00:53:00.000-08:00

$$:7e dun sell slurpee anymore...ok,seriously wont go there anymore..

dear ily zalikha,

2009-12-01T00:18:00.000-08:00

trade your tony for my champion?

please....

bye2,diabolic human...

2009-11-21T00:55:00.000-08:00

family - they lied to you and erode your trust
partner- they never kept their promise
best friend- they are not always by your side
friend- they back stabbed you

mortals are disgusting,they do what they need to do..
"want to survive? then,you have to be an ass to beat the rest"

so,love and have faith in THE ALMIGHTY because you'll know its the right thing to do...

Do you have what it takes to be the next top lawyer?

2009-11-19T01:05:00.000-08:00

an experienced law practitioner used to tell me,if u want to be a hustler in law career,then you should have all of these criteria..

but setupig me are not that sure with what he told me...

stand out from the rest= nudism?

forgiver= senile?

vindictive= if u lose your case,kill the other attorney?

convincing persuader= salesman?

hypocrite: denying denials?

information or crap? habaq mai..

dear,you..

2009-11-16T02:05:00.000-08:00

"keep in touch everyday. kau jangan bagi lame excuses like no battery and no credit kat aku.. "
"ok, you too.promise?"
"promise"

funny, hilarious coz one of us did it..

makan jelah nasi yang dh jdi bubur..

2009-11-13T00:31:00.000-08:00

usaha semester 3 yg cacarmarba..

bel 342

berbaloikah xtidur mlm sbb nk siapkan asignment 342 yg menyebabkan kami semua ponteng lecture law pada next morning?
berbaloikah usaha aku menemani c abbad yang penakot 2 menghantar assignment ke bilik ho chui chui pada pukul 4 pagi untuk extra one mark yg ternyata sistem 2 tipu blaka?

jawapan:tidak, mmg taklah..

bel 332
berbaloikah membeli coklat dri langkawi untuk miss aishah lecturer 332 dan menghafal text debate and speech?

jawapan: ermmm, okla kot..haih..

law3

berbaloikah duk blajar dgn adi 3 mlm beturut2 b4 exam paper law dan mengabaikan tdur demi paper ni?

jawapan:bolehla kot tapi terkilan gak..tengs adi..

global

berbaloikah guna masa eco utk study global and slalu bg extra effort utk assignment global?

jawapan: teramat terkilan...

eco

berbaloikah xamek kisah psal eco spnjg sem dan tiru jwapn adi dan ama masa test?

jawapan: hehe...seronok...

kesimpulannya, tidak boleh nk mengeluh sbb bak kata parents,bg effort yg ntah pape,pas2 solat entah cukup ke tidak?
aku trus kelu...

siapa yang berkata?

2009-11-09T01:14:00.000-08:00

kajang pak malau kajang berlipat,
kajang hamba kajang satay;
orang kata budak subang memang hebat,
tapi xboleh tandingi kehebatan melayu klate..

hamba tak bangga, hamba ikut resmi padi...

"thanks"

2009-11-04T02:11:00.000-08:00

when what you dreamed for is beyond the sky and people around you are totally not your biggest fan, the best way is to let it go...

people should not dwell on their past...

move on....

2009-10-25T01:58:00.000-07:00

susah ke nak faham?

nak kne explain satu per satu ke?

tolonglah cepat2 phm...

krr..

2009-10-23T01:33:00.000-07:00

korang tow x perasan serba salah dan besalah ak masa cuti sem1 nk msok sem 2 dulu??

Well, it haunt me back!! how can i divulge it without guilt ?

aloof and diassociating!!

2009-10-22T02:49:00.000-07:00

i just found out that u make me put the blame on the wrong person, its not backstabbing but dishonesty. u dont lie but u dont tell the truth..

tired and disappointed! im off..give me time for myself..

sorry, the truth is too hard for me to bear in mind and im sick of it..sorry, i need to disassociate myself from all of you for a while..

he said, she said

2009-10-20T01:09:00.000-07:00

1. When people asked my mom what is her political stand, without hesitation she would told them its Gerakan(tak gerak, tak makan)..

haha..wish that it is that easy, but it is not. Eventually, you have to vote, be a participant/follower of the diabolic and dirty game of the mortals.

2. My close friend used to tell me that never think about the out coming problem since it’s not really a problem yet.

True but why not we prepare for the harsh and obscure reality then the pain can easily subside.

3. Freshly, there are few who are indeed close to me divulged that they hate me for I’m not the same person they knew before and I’m completely a different person.

Heyyyh, even when you are in womb or 7 feet under, you are physically undergo changes. And you guys incited me to be the same person?

But I do agree with “What goes around comes around, what goes up must come down”
The fact that your good action are repaid by deeds and vice versa..
What goes up must come down.. (every boy or man do believe in this cause when IT go up, sooner or later IT still going down)

ps:looking forward for 27 oct n tengs for the wishes guys..

what can be worse than ISA?

2009-10-13T01:34:00.000-07:00

-home detained with ur body look like polka dot art..and u scrathing here and there just like orang utan..
-stuck in ur room for 2 weeks,deprive urself from going out and u juxt cant eat anything which means no open house till next year..

Im dying,sesape nak harta ak,just let me know..

Thank u, Chicken pox..

bercuti...

2009-10-09T01:09:00.000-07:00

cuba memenuhi jemputan open house sambil mengira kalori..
mencari kerja untuk mengisi poket yang sentiasa berlubang...
menolong parents dgn malas sambil mengeluh..
cube menjayakan plan reunion classmate yg slalu hangat2 tahi ayam(sorry,guys)..
mencari diri sendiri yang dalam kegelapan(ak mg deep)

happy holidays...and gud luck for ur final guys...

mixed feeling..Tomyam campur..

2009-10-07T11:58:00.000-07:00

i have mixed feeling leaving this prison.
happy for meeting different people which i can called them true friends rather than acquaintances .

sad for realizing that those that u believe in are not those who are supporting you and try to shoot u.

hating the fact that how this place change your attitude and ur personality which make u totally jerk. and hating the fact that this place can be such like a high school drama. becoming a pathetic and backstabber are the nature.

regretting the fact that how i spend my life here ignoring the main gold of being here.

but still there are challenging, depressing and happy moments here. let gone be by gone(the idiom sounds cliche yet its true). the Uitm Merbok episode of mine reaching the end.

Sorry to all,friends. i dont know who Ezwar really is n when im exploring myself somehow all of u became my white mouse..soorry.. i would like to let all of u know that, there's nothing such as holding grudge and vengeance from me(some of the lecturers who try to fail me,hmmm we'll see)..whats over is over, lets us move along the path and dream a better journey..

ps: good luck for those for trying for BLS, and those who r choosing different path..
see all of u soon,real soon,people..

2009-10-06T13:57:00.000-07:00

since ama has done such a good deed by blogging about me, even though she lied that i blackmailed her.let me repay ur deed,amaleena syazwanie binti mohd hanizam..

i am being forced to be ama's cousin when she got admitted mase first sem coz u need to be someone really important to accompany patient(setupid!)and the blood-tie still exist now coz always wishing for duit raya from mr hanizam yg apparently mmg takkan dpt pon.

well, first sem when i saw ama n her snobbish buddy(izdiyani a/p musawir),lutfee and me get the impression both of them are those typical girl yg perasan key-el sesangat..sumpah mintak penerajang everytime masuk kelas..work on your first impression(it still sucks now)

talking with no basis..yes, u r..complaining n whining are ur nature..owh, here are some compliments for u.If there are reality show looking for the next lady gaga, u r so it,dude..the most chic,demure yet astonishing hermaphrodite ever..
and u r always there when i have probs and starving but when u r sleeping i have to rely on others coz u r annoying when it come to the matter of sleep.everybody seemed agreed about it.

even though it is scary to walk with you during raining or lightning(due to the fact she wears braces), i still go along since i can always eat your leftover which is like 3/4 of original serving.hehe

sometime everybody always felt sorry for her coz she looks like those poor starving kids at Burkina Faso or perharps anorexic..
And ama, u r not born voice gifted.the voice is squeaky and high pitch which can torture people. and u r not taylor swift or miley cyrus, just let them sing their own song.okayh?ini semua gara2 obses dgn mawi punye psal..

and soory for making u cry like crazy when we were laughing at ur cikgu sekolah hair.haha,still funny.. no matter what,still u r beautiful in the inside.

and i will always cherish the moment we spent together and be ur best man at ur wedding(ne ayat kne blackmailed)

cukop satu gambar,takut org mati terkejut plak..

warith penyamun hot...

2009-10-03T11:15:00.000-07:00

anonymous setia kat blog ak yg setia memberi kutukan membina...anonymous di blog anda semestinya abdul warith kerana dia bosan dan terlalu free..

sayangilah waruth kerana dia memerlukannya..

comel dan hot x dia,kawan2..

ps:warith,ak dh tunaikan impian ko, dh g main2 jauh2...

short term plan

2009-10-02T00:22:00.000-07:00

1. one more paper to go, 2 killer papers were history,then last mkn2 trip in kedah (semua ceruk kat kedah nk p coz l8r wont hav time to come here dah)..
2. in the mood 4 planning my 2 months holiday(joining the biggest loser asia at hallmark)
3. planning going back home one day earlier coz not in the mood for clean the mess(rum8 sort it out, korg mcm keldai dh,pemalas!)
4. kill all the people on my To-kill list here..(plenty people from a to z to kill,when u stop at W, u know im gonna kill Warith)
5. disassociating then it will easier for me to talk bad bout them here..

ps: when u think u have your person, they hit you real hard at your back..

on the 5th day of syawal

2009-09-23T19:48:00.000-07:00

with the principle of "u forgive me then i forgive u",

i would like to wish happy eidulfitri to all the muslims and happy holiday to non-muslims.

waiting for the next ramadhan for more rewards and less sins.

less passionate for this aidilfitri since age make ur pocket less filled compare to ur annoying cousins..

2 more weeks then memories will decomposed

2009-09-13T14:46:00.000-07:00

time= sloth but fun, fast but pain...
memories of

SEMESTER1(JULY-NOV 2008)

LOST LOTS OF 1ST PICS:(

2ND SEMESTER(DEC-MAY 2009)

LOTS OF STUFF going on..

SEMESTER3(JUN-OCT2009)

SOME OF IT..

:thought when the first time my foot step to this place, it will make me bored to hell..but its a bizarre experience actually and the memories are part of me now..

P.S: spend and share the time wisely, especially YOU...

refugee di bulan Ramadhan

2009-08-29T01:50:00.000-07:00

"kau dan aku bukanlah superman yang mampu terbang menyelamatkan dunia,bukanla spiderman yang pantas memanjat dengan cekapnya, bukanlah hang tuah yang sanggup membunuh rakan kerna taat setianye,kau dan aku hanya manusia biasa dengan mimpi yang berbeza"

"bila rasa diri hodoh, kita memandang cermin dan memberitahu kita lawa, tetapi dunia bukan semudah itu,kita bukan berpaksikan awangan,kita bersama realiti"

"bila bekerjasama dan bersosial menjadi asas hidup, manusia mula mencari titik selesa,dan mereka mula berpuak,dari situ muncullah definisi cantik,jahat ,burok dan baik"

"kau umpama jerawat, walaupun sakit,pedih,buruk,kau tetap sebahagian kecil dari ku"

-------salam pelarian ramadhan(cuba menjadi wannabe a.samad said yg ternyatanye hancur)

Raya is coming!!!But now is ramadhan...

2009-08-22T10:12:00.001-07:00

bile sampai ramadhan,sume nk pose sbb
-geng2 gedang,gelebeh, tong-drum(ak terkecuali),sume pkir kurus..
-budak2 nk reward from parents n belagak ngn kawan2 yg xpose
-geng ibu2 nk bukak pose kat luar sbb penat(pdahal xnk masak)
-student2 leh bg reason penat 4 kelas
-lecturer leh lmbtkn n awalkn kelas sbb nk bukak pose
-geng jalan2 crik makan bole crik tempat2 best nk bukak pose n tayang kat org ramai

sume di atas adalah nowwhy2 yg salah, niat yang betul sila refer niat penulis:
-berpuasa demi yang Esa
-menambahkan pahala dan mengurangkan dosa
-nak solat terawih
-menjadi mukmin yg berjaya di dunia maupon akhirat

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK!!!puasa jangan x puasa..Life is short 4 us,even shorter if u not fasting!!

Some of those who are in bizzare PL3B!!

2009-08-20T03:28:00.000-07:00

TRY TO FIGURE IT OUT WHO THEY ARE..GIVE ME ALL CORRECT ANSWER,THEN SHALL BE REWARD FOR YOU..(HOPEFULLY)

1. he's the one who have the Chinese look but try to be korean
2. she's the one who weight 65 kilogram on the weight-scale machine and has double chin(soon triple)
3. he's the one who is immigrant from nepal and cant talk properly
4. she's the one who wear braces and hoping lightning doesn't strike her
5. he's the one who look like Sir Mahadzhir
6. she's the one who talk like she have no tongue or twisted
7. he's the one who look like teletubbies
8.She's the one who can wrestle like a pro and walk like giant
9. he's the one who have obsession toward hen-tie
10.she's the one who weight one kilo lesser than ILY
11. he's the one who play football like a pro and still single
12.she's the one who paid 15 cent to use toilet at central square(wheres another 5 cent dey)
13.he's the one who are the smallest guy in the class
14.she's the one who got bra and condom as her birthday present because she is pervert
15.he's the one who is the most pious person in our class and love to debate
16.she's the one who laughed like she having asthma.

numb

2009-08-15T09:16:00.000-07:00

is it because of a picture or is it just me?

of my hectic life..

2009-08-01T00:54:00.000-07:00

Life is pain
Life is sorrow
Life is nightmares

Life is love
Life is laughter
Life is sweet dreams

Life is change
Life is loss
Life loosing everything

Life is stability
Life is win
Life is gaining everyone

Life is tears
Life is hurt
Life is grief

Life is smiles
Life is comfort
Life is happiness

Life is loosing
Loved ones

Life is gaining
Yourself

current mood

2009-07-24T02:29:00.000-07:00

pissed off: coz a stranger will enter my campus room and cause me to lose my cozy bed and have to act descent in front of him

scared: just got sms from chu telling me that uitm kedah been closed due to h1n1

relieved: finally home and can relax my body n mind for 10 days and not thinking bout academic stuff

burden: my body cant take the extra baggage on it,tiring(even go to tec 1,im sweating like a pig)

dumb: clueless bout anything i been study for the whole 2 months

free as a bird: free to spend my holiday without any commitment

ps: can uitm be closed for 3 weeks? i want my perfect holiday!!

thats all..r.i.p for the whole weeks..

Me-layu

2009-07-13T00:26:00.000-07:00

Malay is a person who is a muslim, profess the culture of malay and its heritage if u check fed conla.

definitely, i do not considered myself as LELAKI MELAYU TERAKHIR(AZWAN SKULM8 OR FARID UITM maybe deserved the title). schooling at chinese school since kindergarten till spm allowed me to mingle with more Chinese than malay, which yes i have more chinese than Malay friend. we dont speak malay with each other, instead we communicate more in mandarin,cantonese or english so uitm mate,thats explain y i dont have any clue what is jongkang-jongket..(dont laugh).

entering UiTM is quite bizarre 4 me at first,yaa,from minority at ur school then it shifted 360 degree..b4 entering UiTM, i never care to know bout bumiputra's right or ppsmi,coz in my school,what is important is how u can master functions,equation,trigo,all the mathematical stuff,we never careless about whole political stuff,for us its just lame..now,i can see little bit changes in myself which have the intention to care bout stuff like this n world peace..blarghh..

Can UiTM make me more Malay? perharps..I want to wear baju melayu n eat ketupat,lemang n rendang as a routine..cukop 40 hari mesti jadi melayu tulen..

exco sukan yg menyedihkan..

2009-07-08T04:43:00.000-07:00

Keputusan election semester lepas membolehkan ak diterima menjadi hi-com..since post sukan mae rse bkn jiwa die, ak pon dgn rela hati(smbil menipu dri sendri) untuk jadi naib exco sukan prelaw..Menerima jawatan ini merupakan tnggungjawab yg pling kelakar pernah ak trime,I’m suck at sport and if jumping like monkey considered as sport then i guess im good at sport..

Mendengar kutukan amar soufwan morazuki menjadi lumrah lawak hidup ak. Cine gemok pemalas,exco sukan x gune,buncit xlayak jdik exco sukan..hahaha...
Time ak tgh post entry ni, sumeorg tgh kat pdg bersukan,n ak bru lpas balik mkn kat myza..passion and interest ak mmg kat mknn..soriela, dh mmg cimok nak wat mcm mane..bkn alergik peluh cume mmg malas..

Kalau dalam sejarah prelaw, ak bole dikire exco sukan yg pling “Berjaya”..way to go!!! Dh nasib korgla bebudak prelaw dpt ak jdik hi-com..papeon thanks 2 those who support me!! If one day i become the next sport and youth minister and I have biography, I will write ur name on it..amar mora,xyah berangan ,ko mmg xmasokla dlm buku ak..

am i so annoying?

2009-07-02T17:04:00.000-07:00

i know i am annoying.its a fact, my family totally agree with it. but the fact that people constantly annoyed by me make me less annoyed about others.its fine with me!!

but recent, the role shifted.Im still behaving like ass as usual but it seems like people around me started to irritate me..but the nonsenses are that these are stupid scenario or stuff that ignites the fire. how can u get annoyed with people when sthey said stuffs like these to you:

1. ak mintak maaf byk2.kalau ak mati, ko nk solatkn ak x?
2. yela ak x hensem,ko hensem,pandai plak 2
3. dhla skola cina,liberal, radikal
4. ko dh berubahla!
5. jgn kacau ak bole x?
6. lagu2 ko dgr xbest la
7. ko ne cimok bodola

what the?? I'm irritated with stuff like these? dah biol agaknya.. Its not the old me..these are all the bel342 and global issue faults, caused my hormones riding in a roller-coaster..

hopefully i can always have my poker face and be calm for the rest of semester..

ignore cutie kt blakang 2..this is my poker face..youll see more this face of me from now on..

depressed is the topic sentence..

2009-06-24T07:42:00.000-07:00

its almost a month but still there is no positive sign showing i will have magnificent campus life yet!

currently my physical,emotion and feeling is not at the A game..well, due to several things:

1. BEL 342 is not my favorite subject anymore..tiup2..nothing is right,there always be stuff that wont pleased her bout my assignment,(citation,paraphrase,blaaaa2),hopin she is not bias..
one more thing that annoyed me is assignment must be submitted weekly..DANG!!robot ke ape?

2. i have declared war toward charlie..its not that charlie in charlie's angels but charlie that brainless insect which simply pee on ur skin caused ur sexy neck turn hideous and nobody want to look at you anymore..

3. Being class-rep is tiring as hell..u have to deal with those freaks(u know who u r )who dont to want pay for shirts and etc..and our global lecturer doesnt do the help by giving stuffs(i mean a lot of stuff)for me to handle..
thank god im the class-rep for 2 subjects only..

4. money flowed like river..imagine u spend RM15 just to eat daily but ur account doesnt show the same no of increase..u getting poorer so do ur parent!!where is the damn allowance when we need it to buy toothpaste(sorry room8 for using u guy's).

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

KAJANG IS THE NEW SUBANG

2009-06-11T08:27:00.000-07:00

kalu cerite psal kajang je,sume ckp psal satay..even 1st tyme ak naek cab nk g s.p ngn adam mase 1st sem:

pcik teksi: hangpa nk g mana ni?
adam: c.s..
pkcik teksi: hangpa ne budak mana?budak baru ka?
aku:a'a..due2 kajang..
pkcik teksi: owh,sedapla hangpa mkn satay hari2..
aku& adam:haaaa?(LANGSUNG X)-Dalam hati memberontak..

bkn stay jelaa, kajang de byk bende famous ag, examples:
1.penjara kajang
2.Plaza metro kajang(yang bole menandingi subang parade yg iz&sarah banggakn),
3.tol kajang,errrrr,
4.SMJK YUHUA KAJANG yg telah produce student yg cerdik pandai sehingga bole jdi prelaw d uitm kedah
5.dan lain2..

ak sedih bile bndr kajang diejek2(walopon ak sendiri lebih rela mengaku duk bangi dri kajang),perasaan ni hanya dikongsi oleh ak,adam dn ann saje which is 3 budak tunggal prelaw kajang..

kajang de macam2..bkn satay saje..lgpon satay kajang lgi sedap dri satay semeling.
budak tue yg bangge duk gombak bolela trase sebab kt c2 de pe,err batu caves?wtf..

gampang

2009-05-28T05:51:00.001-07:00

not ready to go back to prison...

haish..

apologies accepted!!!

2009-05-24T03:13:00.000-07:00

dh r ak maafkn sumeorg.. I'm taking class bout anger management on9, and have a new spirit now.. positive bai..

avoid all the jinxes...

5 convincing facts bout not going back to campus!

2009-05-18T02:14:00.000-07:00

Life in campus is so tough....

Why?

1. We need 2 follow rules!

2.Food
-eating at dining will always be my pleasure, its like u in fear factor when u try to eat the food and at the same time competing with the flies..

So for preparation, there will be lot of these next sem:

3. no connection to world out there
- Radio signal suck, no tv, most important wireless connection is so lame..

-student’s one suck but staff punyer connection penoh..

4. Assignment & final exam

These really killing me softly, look at the books, it is hard to survive and stay focus.

5. College

It’s really challenging to stay alive at this palace..nak berak pon payah ,haih..

I’m dying

2009-05-14T02:54:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time since i felt there is something wrong with me. I cant sleep at night, gasped for air every time i try to breathe, my chest hurt like there is some burden on it and recent I have no appetite to eat.

So, i decided to go clinic alone and check it out. I thought its gonna be nothing, may just lack of vitamin. Surprisingly, the damn doctor tell me it is a serious disease and i should go to hospital, he tell me i suffered from some kind of illness called hemnesmia(i don’t know the spelling,its just sound scary). I was freaking out, i asked my best friend to accompany me to the hospital and worst case scenario happened, the doctor tell me it is a chronic disease and im actually dying. He said that i need to undergo some operation which may cost around RM 30,000.

You just can’t imagine what i feel, thank god there is my friend. He convinced me to tell my parents and they’re shocked and thought that i’m playing them a prank. Its hard for me but yes, tears dropped from me. They brought me to see another doctor, but still the result is same. If I want to live, i need the operation..haih..
We can’t afford the money. What should I do?

IF U R BROKE, JUST TELL THIS STORY OR POST IT ON YOUR BLOG, IT SURE GONNA HELP YOU WITH SOME CASH..

Philosophies: aku versus org tue ku

2009-05-04T14:03:00.000-07:00

falsafah hidup kite mmg slalu bercanggah ngn parents kite.

In my scenario:

On love:

Parent aku ckp :

love study b4 u love somebody

*kalau ikot ckp parent smpai ke tua la ak x bercinta, xpenah skali pon study 2 ak suke

Ak ckp:

Ultimate love is for THE CREATOR

*tapi trase munafik sbb 5 pillars pon x lengkap

On friendship:

Parent ckp:

kwn biar beribu, lwn jangan ade

*menggunekn common sense ak ,ak pkir kalu kawan kena ada beribu that means kite akn mudah lupe nama kwn kite, which makes us a terrible friend. ishk3..

Ak ckp:

It’s better to have friends who talk bad about u than friends that never even mention ur name.

*yela lgi bagus de orang kutok ko kire at the same time ,name ko boleh jdi top. Kalu member ko x penah sebut pon name ko,ko akn menjadi nobody dan ini bermakne friend request ko akn kosong..

On money& education:

Parent ckp:

Money is not everything, education kalau gempak bolehla survive kat dunie ne..

*yela2,money is not everything..tyme bershopping 4 raya, seposen pon mengira..

Ak ckp:

Money can buy education

*cube check kat www.istantdegree.biz..plih je ijazah ape yg interested , psikologi,sakit puan sumede...google jgn x google..

(entry ni bkn betujuan untuk mendptkn smart tag ke neraka dgn derhaka pd parent ku, hanya nk highlight fallacies mereka )

elevator: naik-turun

2009-04-29T02:18:00.000-07:00

effort trun
bad temper naek
annoying rate naek
bbn keje naek
komitment naek
slera mkn naek
berat bdn naek
kdr hensem trun
saham trun
yg pasti slipar mak aku akn naek ke muke
sbb pointer cham konphem trun

1 Jun 2009

2009-04-23T07:22:00.000-07:00

tarikh ne mmg besejarah.kepada bebudak prelaw yg tersyg, ak dgn ini merasmi tarikh 2 korg akn blik ke uitm utk menjamu mknn kt dinig n smbung study..

yes there is no doubt bout that..ak mendengarnye sendri dri bibir sir zul yg gebu n seksi..

takziah...

typically annoying

2009-03-31T18:43:00.000-07:00

Typically annoying

I got annoyed easily by my surrounding people this semester. I don’t think that I’m the only one who feels this. Well, when I asked everybody why they hate this semester than last semester. Majority said that main reason is people who they are closed with CHANGED. Guys, no they don’t change, they just showing their true color.

Or we are the one who showing our true color?

Annoyed or annoying?
The fact that I’m annoying, well everybody knew it. People who know me, described me as annoying (even my family do). Some people can accept the fact but not every time. Maybe I am becoming pusher. It just pressure exerted on me is too much to handle. (I cracked under pressure btw).
Annoying or annoyed?
I’m preferred to be annoyed because i can still control my emotion. I’m a control freak. But the feeling of making people annoyed by you is suck, you feel guilty and have to wait and wait till....